Do I deserve to go through this?

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This week has been a rollercoaster of emotions. Some days I feel like I’m on cloud- 9, whereas others I’ve felt like I’m absorbed into a hole. I know there are plenty of people who’ve felt this.

Therefore, my question this week is “Do we deserve to go through this?”

There are plenty of people, like me, who ask this question. If I’m at my best, I ask “What did I do to deserve this?” In this case, I’d ask this when I’m in shock about an opportunity that’s placed in front of me.

But I also ask this question when I’m down and I feel like I’ve brought whatever it is upon myself.

From my experience, I’ve noticed that I like to write down what I’m experiencing when I’m in that “hole”. This allows for me to acknowledge my emotions in the moment.

Therefore, writing has become my personal therapy method. Writing can be very beneficial for therapeutic purposes. According to PublishingTalk.org (Reed, 2022), writing can be beneficial in about eight ways.

1. Clearer thinking — “Writing can help keep your mind sharp with age. (Reed, 2022).”
2. Lifelong learning creates more likelihood of being receptive to new ideas and information.
3. Master a skill — This helps acknowledge achievements, big or small.
4. Process difficult events, experiences, and emotions — Personally, this is why I write in my journal or notebook whenever I want to analyze and evaluate any situation.
5. Increase self-awareness — “The mental health benefit is that we become more aware of our feelings, beliefs and values. If you’re familiar with mindfulness meditation, you’ll recognize some of these benefits (Reed, 2022). ”
6. Community and social support — “Writing can be solitary, it’s good to make the most of opportunities to tap into social support where available(Reed, 2022). ”
7. Greater focus and flow — “A feeling where, under the right conditions, you become fully immersed and absorbed in whatever you’re doing (Reed, 2022).”
8. Happiness, purpose, and fulfilment — “it’s OK to prioritize writing — and to prioritize you (Reed, 2022).”

As I’ve stated, writing helps me process my emotions in the moment. In the moment, I realize that I do identify with Number 7 in which I fully absorb myself into my writing. When I write, no one is there. There are no external or internal distractions, it’s just me.

I tend to ask this question most when I’m by myself.

Therefore, writing helps me analyze this question. However, I still ask it. I ask it in the moments where it’s necessary to analyze and breakdown why I feel this way. And, honestly, I find it very helpful.

Therefore, if you find yourself asking this question often, write down everything in that moment to figure out why you feel like that way.

Or comment some ways you dig yourself out that “hole.”

Peace,

Amari